Is it weird that im seriously scared of being sent to a mental hospital?

No matter what i want to never go to a mental hospital, in fact im seriously scared of going to a mental hospital and a lot of the time when I see my psychiatrist I think im going to be sent to a mental hospital because on almost all of my appointments I've needed to go on more medication (because sometimes im happy one minute and miserable the next so I got put on seroquel xr), or I needed to have the dose of my medication increased (happened first to my celexa from 20 mg to 30 mg, and once to my seroquel xr, from 150 mg to 300 mg), and half of the time I end up cutting soon (usually less than a week) before my psychiatrist appointment, and sometimes I get paranoid/scared and I lie, and one time I admitted that I like to hurt my little brother (not badly), and my psychiatrist oddly enough didn't think much of that. Is it weird that im so scared of being sent to a mental hospital when maybe going to one could help me? (And im never going to admit myself).